Welcome to my first Behind the Blogger post. In this series, a collection of bloggers are given a writing prompt. We are interpurate it however we please and write. This series is designed for our readers to get to know us, the bloggers, better. The first one is “If I Could Turn Back Time“.
Thinking back on my life there really is not one thing that I would change. I am a strong believer in everything happens for a reason. Of course at times my world may have felt like it was falling apart – breaking up with a boyfriend, moving towns, even my parents’ divorce. But all of those things have worked out for the better in the end. I am now married to the man of my dreams – the man who makes me laugh every day. We have two beautiful little girls that I cherish. Those three human beings are my world and I wouldn’t change it for a thing. I know that if I were to change anything in my past, even one small thing, that might effect the future and I would not be where I am today. Everyone makes mistakes, but sometimes, aren’t they necessary mistakes?
I suppose if there was one thing that I could change, it would be related to my first daughter’s birth. She was born in the hospital – and I had an epidural. Before I even got pregnant, my husband and I had decided on a home birth. I wanted an all natural birth with no medication (sounds crazy, I know, but it is what I wanted). I had my heart set on that but then I lost my first pregnancy. That was heartbreaking. It was awful. It was the worst thing I have ever gone through. If you have had a miscarriage, then you know what I am talking about. So when I got pregnant a second time, I was a nervous wreck. After a couple weeks, I started bleeding. I had flashbacks to the miscarriage and kept telling myself that I could not go through that again. So we went to the doctor’s office. They did an ultrasound and luckily everything was OK with the baby. But my nerves caused me to switch from my midwife to the doctor – and to start planning a hospital birth.
When in labor at the hospital I was so tense and slowly progressing that they pretty much told me I HAD to get an epidural – or pitocin. Since I had done some research and had read that pitocin will most likely lead to an epidural, I went with the epidural first. I was in labor for just about 24 hours and then my princess was born. I wouldn’t say I had a bad experience, it was just not what my plan was. With my second daughter, I did get the home birth I was dreaming of (you can read all about that here). But, if I could turn back time, I would either go with the home birth for my first daughter – or I would at least hold out and not get the epidural. But, like I said before, everything happens for a reason.
Thank you for reading a story from #BehindTheBlogger Hop. Every 2 weeks a group of bloggers is given a writing prompt. These prompts are very open ended, so our bloggers can write about whatever they desire. The main rule is that their blog post directly relates to the topic of that week. The point of this hop is for our readers to get to know us on a personal level.
Please hop along and read all of the blog posts in this weeks hop. Just click the links below. If you want real and raw emotion, then you will find it here. After you read each post, please comment and share. We want to get to know you too!
If you’re a blogger and you’d like to join the hop, please sign up here.
If you’d like to join The Hopping Blogger, please join here.