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Behind the Blogger December 2, 2015

Let’s Go Back | #BehindTheBlogger

 

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I am so glad that I have a little bit of time to do this week’s Behind the Blogger writing prompt. It is “Let’s Go Back” and honestly, I am immediately transported to the moments when my daughters were babies. I know they are still “babies” – they are *almost* 3 and 4 years old. But I remember when I could pick them up and cuddle them and they wouldn’t push away. Yes, my 4 year old already does that. Not all the time, but often enough that it makes me sad. She doesn’t need help picking out her clothes or getting dressed anymore – and she goes to school every day. I would give anything to go back to the moments when I would hold her, nursing her, and just stare into her adorable little eyes and she would twirl my hair or clothes with her fingers as I fed her. That goes for both of them. My 3 year old still cuddles sometimes, but she pushes away quite a bit as well.

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There is nothing like nursing a baby and knowing that you are giving them what they need to survive. So crazy that your body can do that – it is a miracle. It really is. For those of you that experienced it, I am sure you can agree with me. I will be having no more babies and that makes me a tad sad. Knowing I will never again nurse a little one hurts my heart, just a little bit. I know I have many, many, many, great years ahead with my girls – but every now and then, I look at them, and think let’s go back to when you were tiny and I could cuddle you in my arms for hours.

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Behind the Blogger September 9, 2015

#BehindTheBlogger: It Was The Best Of Times

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This week’s Behind the Blogger writing prompt is “It Was The Best Of Times”. This one is easy for me because I immediately think of my family’s latest trip to Walt Disney World. We are a Disney family and always have so much fun there. My husband and I honeymooned at Disney at we have a trip coming up next month. The last time we went (February 2014) was the girls’ first visits! They had a blast! We could not have planned it better. We only went for two days so I cannot wait to go for a full week this upcoming trip!

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I teared up so many times seeing the magic of Disney through my daughters’ eyes. My (then) two year old even got to sing with Rapunzel – and she still talks about it! My (then) one year old was in awe of Snow White and Doc McStuffins. We were unable to go on many rides because of their ages but we did meet a lot of characters. I cannot even describe the look in their eyes. I know that it brought my husband and I closer being there as well – getting to experience it with the girls. This year we are going during Mickey’s Not So Scary Halloween and I am sure it will take over as the best of times in my mind. I feel like a kid again the second we step foot on the Disney Resort. If you have never been before, it is something I highly recommend. The pricing really is reasonable when you take in to consideration all that you get for it. I am a Disney girl at heart – and anything to do with Disney is a good time for me.

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Behind the Blogger August 26, 2015

#BehindTheBlogger: Who Do You Think You Are?

When I first read the writing prompt “Who Do You Think You Are?” I couldn’t help but think of the TV show with this title. In this show, celebrities dig in to their ancestry to learn more about where they came from. I would love to do this sometime as I do not know much about either side of my family. I know that my father’s side is Greek (with a maiden name like Alexopoulos, that is a given!) and I know that I still have relatives over there. But that is about it. I keep playing with the idea of signing up for a service like Ancestry.com to discover more about my past.

On my mother’s side I know absolutely nothing at all. Her maiden name was Wilson and so nothing stands out at all. As far as my husband’s ancestry goes, we do not know much there either. I am hoping that one day my family can take a trip to Greece and Europe and see what we can find out. My Papou (grandfather) is 100% Greek but I believe he was born in the USA. I do not even know that for sure as I have heard that he was born here and that he was born in Greece. It is so sad how lineage can get lost over time. I am hoping to one day have everything all mapped out for my girls and that way they can know where they came from.

I love watching the Who Do You Think You Are show and seeing how far back they can go and how interesting all of their discoveries are. I am hoping to one day know where I do come from. If you know of any free services or ways to start going about this – let me know!

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Behind the Blogger July 30, 2015

#BehindTheBlogger: I Could Only Imagine

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This Behind the Blogger writing prompt is “I Could Only Imagine“. I must admit, I was stumped about what to write for a while. I could easily go dark with this but I wanted to keep it someone positive. At the same time, I really wanted to write about something that is on my mind every day. I could only imagine if I did not lose that baby 6 years ago. It is a little dark, but it is real.

If you have gone through a miscarriage before than you know it is on your mind every day. Some days it may be hiding in a dark corner and some it may be at the forefront of your brain. My husband and I had only been married for 4 months when we found out we were expecting. The plan after the wedding was “if it happens, it happens” and we were over the moon that it happened so quickly. At my first ultrasound appointment they did not see a heartbeat, but said that was normal as I was only about 5 weeks along. They did, however, schedule a follow up appointment a week later to check again. At this appointment we were told that there was still no heartbeat, but that I should come back in another week to confirm. Well, at that third appointment we found out that our precious little baby never had a heartbeat and never would. That was hard. Really hard. It brought my husband and I a lot closer – silver lining I suppose.

But not a day goes by that I don’t look at my girls and think about their older brother or sister. I wonder how well they would have played together, what that child would look like – I even wonder if our youngest would even be here as we have only planned on two kids. I can’t help but think about it sometimes, as much as it hurts. There is a song by Miley Cyrus (I know) that my husband and I heard on the way home from the hospital that day – “Bottom of the Ocean“. The lyrics really hit home for us, even though they were not intended to mean what they mean to us.

How could I be losing you forever?
After all the time we spent together

I have to know why
I had to lose you
Now you’ve just become
Like everything I’ll never find again
At the bottom of the ocean

Like I said, I cannot help but wonder who that child would be. But I can’t dwell on it either. It would eat my up inside.

I can only imagine who my son or daughter would be today, but maybe, just maybe, everything happens for a reason.

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Behind the Blogger July 16, 2015

#BehindTheBlogger: My Whole World

Easter 2015

This week’s #BehindTheBlogger writing prompt is My Whole World. This one is easy for me. My family – my girls and my husband – are my whole world. Hands down. They are immediately what I think of when I read that phrase. When I first met my husband, we clicked. From the moment we started talking. And we met at a wedding, go figure! He was my whole world from that exact moment on.

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And then, approximately three and a half years later, looking in to the eyes of a beautiful little girl, my whole world grew by one. I had never imagined that I could feel a love that strong, but I did. I wanted to be there to protect her for the rest of my life. I wanted to make sure that she would never feel pain. I wanted to hold her in my arms and keep her safe. After having a miscarriage before having her, I felt so much joy – not to take away from mothers that have not had one, just saying that made the feeling stronger for me.

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When I found out I was pregnant with our second child, I was happy but also nervous. I had already made room in my heart for tow human beings (my husband and my daughter) but I could not imagine there being any love left – at least not a love as strong as the others. But boy was I wrong. Holding that little girl in my arms all I felt was pure ecstasy. I was on cloud 9. (Read my home birth story here). I knew that my family was complete. I had more than enough love for all of them – and each of them means everything to me.

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My Whole World consists of three people. And if anything were to happen to any of them, my whole world would crumble. I do not even want to imagine it.

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Behind the Blogger July 1, 2015

#BehindTheBlogger: My Kinda Freedom

#LoveWins

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I must say that this is the perfect Behind the Blogger topic for this week. Yes, Independence Day is coming up this weekend – but more importantly, the Supreme Court just ruled that marriage is marriage and love is love. No matter the gender. I am over the moon about this decision and no, I am not part of the LGBT community. However, I do support them, wholeheartedly. I have several family members and friends that are part of it, but even if I didn’t, I would support them.

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There is no reason to think that someone should not be happy just because of the way they are born. I am tired of seeing people say “this isn’t about hate.” Yes, yes it is. Why else would you not want someone to be happy? To be able to marry who they wish to marry because they love them. There is absolutely no reason behind it (and please don’t try to quote the bible because there is a whole list of things that you can’t do according to the bible that I am willing to bet you do). I get that some people have differing opinions and that is OK. This is a free country and I support your right to think what you want. But I don’t support you spewing hate or trying to cram it down my throat. The ruling was made. Try to just be happy for these people. Please. Everyone deserves happiness. If you truly feel, in your heart, that members of the LGBT community do not deserve to be married, then I feel sorry for you. I feel sorry that you have that much hate inside of you that you care what someone else does, when it doesn’t affect you in the least. It is not contagious ya know. These people were born that way. Just like others are born with darker skin or disabilities. They are who they are and no one should make them feel like that is not OK. There is no justifiable reason to hate someone so much (that you don’t even know) that you wish them to not be happy.

This is all about equal rights. Do you remember when women couldn’t vote? When African Americans had to drink from separate water fountains and use separate bathrooms? It all seems ridiculous now, doesn’t it? That is because it is ridiculous. I find peace knowing that when my daughters are older, they will be shocked to learn that men marrying men and women marrying women was once illegal. We now live in a country where people can be who they are – and marry who they want to marry – no matter their gender, race, or religion. Be who you want to be – don’t let anyone tell you otherwise – and don’t settle for anything less.

This is my kinda freedom. 

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Behind the Blogger June 18, 2015

{Behind the Blogger} If I Could Turn Back Time

Easter 2015

Welcome to my first Behind the Blogger post. In this series, a collection of bloggers are given a writing prompt. We are interpurate it however we please and write. This series is designed for our readers to get to know us, the bloggers, better. The first one is “If I Could Turn Back Time“.

Thinking back on my life there really is not one thing that I would change. I am a strong believer in everything happens for a reason. Of course at times my world may have felt like it was falling apart – breaking up with a boyfriend, moving towns, even my parents’ divorce. But all of those things have worked out for the better in the end. I am now married to the man of my dreams – the man who makes me laugh every day. We have two beautiful little girls that I cherish. Those three human beings are my world and I wouldn’t change it for a thing. I know that if I were to change anything in my past, even one small thing, that might effect the future and I would not be where I am today. Everyone makes mistakes, but sometimes, aren’t they necessary mistakes?

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I suppose if there was one thing that I could change, it would be related to my first daughter’s birth. She was born in the hospital – and I had an epidural. Before I even got pregnant, my husband and I had decided on a home birth. I wanted an all natural birth with no medication (sounds crazy, I know, but it is what I wanted). I had my heart set on that but then I lost my first pregnancy. That was heartbreaking. It was awful. It was the worst thing I have ever gone through. If you have had a miscarriage, then you know what I am talking about. So when I got pregnant a second time, I was a nervous wreck. After a couple weeks, I started bleeding. I had flashbacks to the miscarriage and kept telling myself that I could not go through that again. So we went to the doctor’s office. They did an ultrasound and luckily everything was OK with the baby. But my nerves caused me to switch from my midwife to the doctor – and to start planning a hospital birth.

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When in labor at the hospital I was so tense and slowly progressing that they pretty much told me I HAD to get an epidural – or pitocin. Since I had done some research and had read that pitocin will most likely lead to an epidural, I went with the epidural first. I was in labor for just about 24 hours and then my princess was born. I wouldn’t say I had a bad experience, it was just not what my plan was. With my second daughter, I did get the home birth I was dreaming of (you can read all about that here). But, if I could turn back time, I would either go with the home birth for my first daughter – or I would at least hold out and not get the epidural. But, like I said before, everything happens for a reason.

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